Sunday, January 03, 2010

The Defining Moment

In everyone’s lives there are defining moments that make them who they are today. Some are what make them doctors, lawyers and even politicians. Well I had one of those defining moments today. I wasn't about my career choices in life it was about my health. It was about not wanting to DIE like my mother did. I was about my health of where I was 10 years ago pregnant and pretty healthy with my son Hayden, running after little ones and not having much of a problem with that even in the end of my pregnancy I was still active and vibrant. Well today the moment hit me where my chest started to pound and my body started to go into preservation mode. I mean this in all honesty of that moment. I thought I could have been having a heart attack. All I knew is the pain in my chest throbbing pain in my chest.

I was walking just walking with my husband and we were doing the first day of our routine and it was amazingly hard. It took 10 minutes to get out of the apartment complex and to the corner it’s not that far away to the corner. So 20 minutes to walk from the bottom of the steps to the corner and back. 6 minutes to get out of the complex and 4 to get to the corner. I knew at the top of the apartment complex driveway I was in the worst shape of my life. NOW here is the defining moment. I could have finished right there copped out and said I needed to go home that I was still recovering from being sick and on my period. But I didn't I hurt my chest had a sharp pain radiating through it and yet I kept going that next 4 minutes.

I walked to the corner and back home then up to the third floor and I am alive to tell the tale. I knew that I was in this for the long haul that I can't become a mother to another child in this condition. I am to fat and to out of shape and going to be to dead if I don’t do this for me NOW TODAY. Tomorrow tomorrow it's only a day away........tomorrow tomorrow it never seems to come my way. NO MORE TOMORROW just a lot of TODAYs and RIGHT NOWs. Get off my fat ass and get on the elliptical. Get off my butt and go take Chloe for a walk. Get off my rear and clean the bathroom floor not with a mop but on my hands and knees because its good exercise. Get off my ass is all I need to worry about right now. Get up and do something be it working out every day or be it scrubbing the floor the "old fashioned" way or taking my dog for a long walk.....til she tries to rip my arm off when she sees a cat.

This is the day. Today is the beginning of the not so near end. I want to be healthy I want to be that aunt that the family talks about living know the one I am talking about. The one you thought was going to die first of the siblings and is the last one standing and seems to be defying all reasons of life and gonna be around for another 20 years. I want to be her. I want to be here to see my grandkids graduate college.

I am not tired and I am not sore (yet) but I know when I am I will still need to do this for my health. For my LIFE.

Ok so enough of that tonight I cooked a meal that was good for me. I usually have chicken veggies and pasta and sauce and lots of butter. Well today it was chicken tossed into the oven at 375 degrees for30 minutes then I sautéed some Walla Walla sweet onion and finished off the chicken just to brown it a bit on the stove top with so little oil that I couldn’t see the grease on the pan. It normally is pouring all over the plate. It didn’t tonight. And then we had veggies FROZEN but hey better then canned. I put Mrs. Dash on them the garlic blend that was all it needed. I was satisfied and I had two apples for dessert. Yummy Jazz apple and an ambrosia apple.

Ok its 11:19pm I am off to relax before bed. Sweet dreams to everyone and healthy habits to me. And you too if you want them....Join me in my quest for a healthier lifestyle.

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